People who are able only to discuss others

It is a very thin line standing between who u were yesterday and who are you today. Maybe only one thing is for sure- your ambition. It is the wish of doing something what makes you a human being. And what does not is the waiting for something.
If you look at a one-year-old, you will see the baby is trying to make all the things itself and doesn't wait for anything. It is constantly showing and even trying to say what it wants. And we, the adults, have lots this abilities. We are trying to build a pyramid of prerogatives and we are afraid to confess what exactly we want.
But the people I can't stand are people, who don't even have prerogatives. All they do is wait for something to get from someboby/somewhere, etc. They really get on my nerves and the only exclusion I can make is for old friends. Friends, though, is not the right work. I can clearly realize that I cannot call these people so, because they don't care about me. In fact, they hardly ever care at all. Well, maybe only who they can get something from.
If they recognize in the the cow who could be milked, so be it. I could give them only one last final advice - to be active, to do something on their own, instead of trying to compare with me or with others. Because all the successful people are people, getting up every morning with desire- doing things, working, having rest, travelling, not trying to guess what to complain of. I call it desire of living.

Try again and again and again ........

It's so sad when you've got no choice but trying again and making a mistake and again trying again and again.... One can really go mad, but the really tiring experience is to realize where exactly is your mistake and why hadn't you check before. In such cases you realize that the most precious thing in the world is to have somebody not only to listen to you, but to give you at least hope, not speaking of real help. The thought you've got someone to help you is the most wonderful that can happen to you - it's a miracle. It is a miracle called friend. I am there for all my real friends and I sincerely thank them all!

Different pictures

It's a picture of a date, of a event what comes to you mind when you try to describe what happened to you or how you spent a date, a day, a vacation.
Sometimes, there are no pictures. Not a single picture for a whole day, or even for a whole week.
There is a picture I cannot forget more than a fortnight. A picture of a girl, a girl around 18, who I met on a educational fair. Her name, old clothes, and vision doesn't matter- it's not her look I resemble- it is the feeling around her. And the feeling was struggle. The cruellest and at the same time not obtrusive struggle. The wish for success, but not success at any price. Maybe this girl reminds me of the girl I once was. Or maybe it was the wish of change what impressed me the most. I hope she will choose the right way to improve herself. And hope she will not lose her faith in her and in the world.
But, looking at my friends, I see different picture ( I am sorry, no offence). I see a picture of lost dreams, as in a famous Russian song "wrecks of feelings" and the explanation am searching for is WHY. Who or what made us like this? What made us stop dreaming? Lack of work and absolute apathy to the wrecks of education in Bulgaria? Lack of money? Lack of love? Lack of luck? Surely not the last two, because I love all of my friends and we're lucky to have each other. I think it's lack of smiles- we didn't learn to smile at our problems and do not pay attention on job, educational or financial obstacles. We lost our desire of actually being somebody within the worries of the small or huge problems we have to cope with every day.
Some of us still have dreams (well, maybe different from what we dreamed for 5 years ago). So lets make them reality....... or at least try :)

Men and Windows

The Main Man Menu

Recently, I fell in love with an absolutely strange man. This made me search for some tips how to ask him out.

As for I didn't succeed to find a single reasonable advice on the net, I dared to ask my best friend how did she "gain" the man she lives with.

"There are several men types", she explained- "You'll learn that if you stop working so hard and start dating more men. The moment you meet him, you choose from several options what to say and how to act".

Everything was so clear to me- I imagined Windows- when you switch the man on, you should "click your username to begin"- either you are serious, or you want just to have some fun. After you have chosen, you click the Start button, the main menu appears on the screen and it is only up to you what shall you do with him.

At this stage the options are also two- Left and Right Side.

From the Left we usually choose "All Programs"- it is when we need something defined from him, including the worldwide used category "Games". Left contains also the most used shortcuts, which means we can use our old tricks on this man.

The Right Side is the most interesting, but it shall be used in case you are really interested in him (he's Mr Right). Right includes such things as "My Documents", "My Music", "My Pictures", "My Computer"- they are on the top of Windows Main Menu - i.e. The first stage of Man Main Menu (Right Side). After Stage 1 is accomplished, the Middle of Windows Main Menu (Right Side) comes- "Control Panel", "Connect to", "Printers and Faxes". This is the most important stage before finally "getting" the man. Trough faxes, phones you connect to his friends, family and, of course, him until you receive a permission to enter his Control Panel. When you are already there, the man is yours. And here comes the Stage 3 - your life together. As you already presume, it is the Bottom of Windows Main Menu (Right Side), including "Help and Support" - you shall always be there for him, "Search"- you are supposed to remember where he puts his belongings; And, finally, the Dream of every woman- "Run"- the peak of woman's power...

It is such a release to understand that "getting" most men is just as simple as using Windows. But, at this same second a thought appeared in my mind- Is really the clever man I love so predictable and simple? Probably hi is. But it is my love that makes him unique- he, perhaps, could be used as Windows, but not by me. In my eyes he is different- he is the person my hearth beats for and it is only my love that will show me how to act. I really don't need these Main Menu options, but if someone has a tip how to ask him out, please, drop a line!